Friday, June 23, 2006

Mark Hanson ~ B.E.A.S.T. Scientist Log

I cannot believe what these people are making us do. It's . . . it's disgusting. It's inhumane. It's monstrous.

I never thought I would be doing experiments not only on animals but on men! I graduated top of my class and immediately was chosen by the government for my expertise in genetics. How could I turn down that salary? I can still remember my wife and I dancing in our kitchen when we got the news.

But it was soon after that the nightmare began. We are not allowed to speak of our work to anyone, not even our wives. For all she knows, I'm growing organs in a lab for people who need a new liver. How can I go home to her night after night, knowing full well the hell these men have to go through?

They've given them psuedonyms as well as a "number", so we scientists don't have a "moral dilemma" experimenting on a number rather than a name. I was one of the scientists on the team for transforming Experiment #121. Otherwise known as Noah Carpenter. But I couldn't stand his screams any more. All I could think of is myself lying on that table, having to put up with red-hot needles shoved into various muscles, or, God forbid, given the serum.

Can you imagine being unable to shift? That's what the serum does; it surpresses the shifting, so that for a few hours at least, you are either stuck as a human, or as the animal they wish you to become. More than once I've witnessed that white tiger endure gruesome torture at the hands of my colleagues.

I couldn't stand it any longer.

It took some convincing on my part, but eventually, Noah trusted me, along with his friends Rogan, Justin, and Wade. I helped him escape.

I'm writing this now as my last account of things, since I know B.E.A.S.T. is aware of my disloyalty. My hands are shaking as I write this. There is no merciful death for me. I know exactly what they will do. Make ME an experiment for their shifters. I only hope I can type what I want to say before they come to kill me.

Karen, I love you. You are my heart. Take care of our boys and know that whatever they tell you regarding my death, it is a lie. All of it. Tell Dylan and Tyler Daddy loves them, and give them a hug every day from me. Sweet Jesus, they're pounding on the door. There's no escape. Holy shit, there's no escape! Baby, I'm so sorry things turned out this way. I wish it could have been different. I know I'm not the man you thought I was. I just hope that in time, you can forgive the horrible things I have done in the name of science.

Oh God, they've broken down the door! It's Tam. I knew they'd send him! I can only pray he's merciful!!


Saturday, June 10, 2006

Lanie Erickson's Thoughts

What the hell am I going to do? Noah Carpenter is intense, and so damn sexy that I can't stop my body from responding to his voice alone. He kissed me. Wild and passionate, I could have sworn my skin was on fire. And the taste of him. Dear God.

But he's refused to go all the way. He can remember flashes of his life before as he calls it--the life he had before B.E.A.S.T. abducted him long ago. He can remember a woman, and a name. Anthony Mercer.

We cannot give in to our passion because he might have a wife. Hell, he could even have a family! He would belong to them. I have to keep my heart protected, but how can I when every time I look at him, all I can think of is his hard body pressed against mine as he steals my very breath?

I guess these condoms I stole are useless now. I can't even believe I stooped so low as to rip them out of the box right there in the store! But that was before he denied me. Damn, why can't I stop crying?

Noah is the only man I have ever really wanted. But is getting intimate with him really the answer? We're on the run and he can remember flashes of another woman. What am I going to do if I have to say goodbye to this man?

I try not to think about it. Oh God.

I think I'm in love with him.

~~Lanie Erickson

Thursday, June 08, 2006

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