Remembering My "Life Before"

I'm sitting here in my own wife's house and I can't remember one goddamn thing about our wedding day. She showed me pictures and I feel like a fricken' ass. How can I not remember the day I got married for God's sake? And Marlie, she was so beautiful in her dress. But no matter how hard I try, I can't bring those images to my mind, even though I see myself in those pictures, plain as day.





Those assholes at B*E*A*S*T* have a lot of shit to answer for. And Marlie... The woman looks so lost. Everytime she gazes at me, my heart jumps and all I want to do is kiss her tears away. I only have one hazy memory of my life before--making love to my wife on a starlit night. I can even remember exactly what Marlie tastes like.





I've got to know if what I remember is real. I NEED to know if it truly happened. I'm going crazy just thinking about it. But I can smell Marlie's scent. She's apprehensive and confused and scared at the fact that I've merely waltzed back into her life. But there's another scent wafting from her, a stronger one, one that's making me salivate at the thought alone.

Desire.

Christ, the woman still wants me after all this time! Wade says I have a second chance with her. He thinks she's still in love with me. Judging by her scent, I'd say he's not too far from the truth. But I can't jump into a new relationship with a woman I don't remember. That wouldn't be fair to either of us.

Damn it, I can hear her crying. I won't be able to stand it much longer.

Shit, I'm going to regret this. But I've got to taste her again. There's no other choice. I need to remember her. I need HER.



~~Rogan Wolfe

It's Too Easy

I’ve found her house. Marlie Silver—the “wife” of Rogan Wolfe—the woman I’m going to kill. Her sweet scent permeates the air, and I can’t stand it. My mouth is drooling in anticipation of slipping my sharp teeth into her belly, cutting her flesh to ribbons.

And all while Rogan watches.

I know he’s in there with her. The snow is thick with the scent of his unease. More than once I’ve had to control the urge to tear down the door and kill everyone inside to satisfy my rage. But I must control myself. I haven’t come this far only to fail in making Rogan suffer as I have suffered. His wife thought she’d been a widow these past two years. Now, I’m going to make Rogan a widower.

The beauty of it all is that he’s found her again. I’ll give him some time. I’ll give him all the time he needs to reacquaint himself with Marlie. It will only prove to make my revenge that much sweeter. She’ll taste like sugar, the sweetest meat I’ve ever devoured.

And Rogan... Ah, he’ll taste bitter. His fear will permeate his flesh. I haven’t decided if I’ll have mercy on Marlie and kill her before I feast. More than likely I will. And I’ll eat my fill. Once my hunger is satisfied, I’ll leave Rogan to ponder the loss of his wife for a few hours, torturing him beyond belief. But for Rogan, there shall be no mercy. Oh no. My pleasure will come from hearing his screams echoing in my ears, pleading for me to stop, screaming his dead wife’s name.

Go ahead and bask in your false sense of security, Rogan Wolfe. Tomorrow, you—and your wife—are mine.



~~Sean Ross

New Winner!!

Here it is, Tuesday, November 21st, and poor Pearl didn't claim her prize after one week's time. Therefore, she foreits her win to another person--chosen at random--who entered the contest I held TWO WEEKS ago for a chance to win an autographed copy of THE B*E*A*S*T* WITHIN.

I'm sorry, Pearl, but I tried to find you, really I did. I posted on my Amazon Plog, MySpace, my author loop, and all the Yahoo loops I frequent. :( I didn't see you and I didn't get any emails from you.

The NEW WINNER for the autographed copy is..... CATHY! :D I chose #17 at random, and Cathy, you were the 17th poster to the contest thread below with this comment: "This is a new series for me, but I loved the excerpts and would love a chance to read it."

Congratulations, woman! Please email me your snail mail addy to rebeccagoings@gmail.com and I'll get your prize out to you as soon as I can! :D

Remember, Cathy, you MUST respond to me within ONE WEEK, or else next Tuesday, you'll forfeit your win to someone else. Gotta be ON THE BALL in my contests! So don't delay, email me as soon as you can! Congrats again! Woohoo!

~~Becka

Rogan is a Man Obsessed

I've never seen Rogan this way. He's driven by something deep inside of him to find his wife, Marlie Silver. I can't even imagine what it must be like to learn you have a wife--one you can't remember. She lives in Alaska of all places, and we've been busting our asses to get there. If you ask me, I think Rogan still loves her.



It's not too much of a stretch to believe if we can remember certain things about our lives before, then our feelings from that life might also seep into our consciousness. Rogan says he only wants to know, once and for all, if she's moved on, if she has herself a new family. But I can tell it's eating him inside. Every time I mention she might have moved on, he growls at me with his eyes flashing.

I think it's amusing, really. Somewhere deep down inside of him, Matthew Silver never really died. Rogan wants his wife to be waiting for him. He hasn't come out and said as much, but I can read his scent more than anything. He's worried and anxious most of the time. And jittery. Dear Gawd, is that boy jittery! Almost dumped a steaming cup of coffee in my lap the other morning. He didn't talk to me the rest of the day, because I, of course, refused to let him live it down.



I, for one, certainly hope his wife Marlie isn't tied down. For Rogan's sake. If he's this nervous about meeting her again for the first time, I can't even imagine what he'll be like if she's remarried. He'll be downright un-live-with-able. As much as he's gotten on my nerves on our trip up north, I do love the guy. And I can only pray Rogan finds what he hopes to find.

~~Wade McAllister

CONGRATULATIONS TO PEARL!!

Pearl, YOU are the winner of an autographed copy of THE B*E*A*S*T* WITHIN!!! Congratulations, woman! Please email me at rebeccagoings@gmail.com and let me know your info so I can get your book out to you.

Thank you so much to everyone who entered my contest. This book (and series) is one of my favorites. You won't be disappointed! :D

THE B*E*A*S*T* WITHIN can be found on Amazon and Barnes & Noble online! Order yours today! :D

Don't forget, I update this blog every WEDNESDAY, and I'm now concentrating on posts for the second book, B*E*A*S*T* OF BURDEN, releasing on February 1st, 2007. I hope y'all come back to check things out every week!

Until then, check out this fantabulous GLOWING review TBW received from Love Romances and More:

"Move over Lora Leigh, Champagne Books' hot new author Rebecca Goings has joined the fray into genetically engineered shapeshifting uber-soldiers with the first book in her B*E*A*S*T series, THE B*E*A*S*T WITHIN and she is taking no prisoners.... This reader eagerly awaits the next book in this haunting and evocative B*E*A*S*T series. Kudos to Champagne Books for discovering this talented new author."

~~Tammy, Love Romances and More


~~Becka :D

Kickin' It Up a Notch!!

Who wants to win a copy of THE B*E*A*S*T* WITHIN?? Better yet, who wants to win a SIGNED PRINT copy of THE B*E*A*S*T* WITHIN? Hmm?

All this week, I'm holding a contest here on my blog. I will announce the winner on Tuesday, November 14th, right here on THIS blog. All you've got to do to enter? Leave a comment on THIS VERY THREAD!! I want you to tell me what your favorite thing is about the B*E*A*S*T* series.

Do you like the heroes? The villains? The originality of the plot? The book cover? The book trailers? This blog? :P Anything at all, but you must tell me something you like about B*E*A*S*T* in order to qualify.

Remember, contest ends on Tuesday, so get your comments in!! Don't want to pass up a signed copy of B*E*A*S*T*!



~~Becka

HE'S ALIVE

I don't believe it. How could this be happening? Matthew's alive? Where the hell has he been for the past two years?

I've been so lonely, so isolated, so cold since Matthew died. Despite my family's urgings, I couldn't bare to throw away his things. Week after week, I would pull down his pictures and try to find his scent on the clothes he left behind. My bed is so big and empty. But no matter how many men I've 'dated' since Matthew's death, none of them could possibly compare. He was the love of my life.

But now, there's a man on my couch who looks just like my deceased husband, claiming to actually be Matthew Silver. I don't know what to believe any more. I feel like I'm going insane. I missed him so damn much, all I want to do is pull him closer, feel his weight bearing down on me. But that scares me more than anything. Who knows who this guy really is. He goes by "Rogan Wolfe", amazingly, using my husband's middle name as his first name.

He looks just like Matthew, except his hair is a little longer. But this man can shift into a wolf! If I hadn't seen it with my own two eyes, I never would've believed it. What has he been through? Who the hell is B*E*A*S*T*? And dear God, what did they do to him?

He doesn't remember me. I never thought anything could hurt quite as much as losing my husband. But having fate return him to me only to take his memories away has ripped out my heart. Matthew may have returned to me, but he is no longer the man I married. He's now Rogan Wolfe, a shifter.

He says he can only remember one thing of his life before--making love to me. God help me, but I want him to take me in his arms and make love to me once again.

~~Marlie Silver